Wednesday Evening

Thanks for all the prayers. Steve slept well last night, and felt better all day. We had both the PET scan and the MRI today. Unfortunately, they lasted longer than anticipated, and we weren't able to start on the amino acid/vitamin IV, yet.

Tomorrow, we meet with the Doctors at 9am to get the results of today's scans. The plan is to also start the chemo tomorrow, as well as the vitamin IV. We're also hoping to have results of the genetic testing tomorrow or Friday.

Please continue to pray with us that the liver is not involved. We'll find that out in the morning. Also, if the genetic testing shows a certain abnormality, the genetic therapies they specialize in will be especially hopeful.

(By the way, I messed up one of the Doctor's names yesterday. It's Alam (accent on "am"), not Amen.)

Something that we feel like the Lord is teaching us now is to fully be in each moment. Where do any of us get the idea that we definitely have tomorrow? We tend to spend so much time planning for tomorrow that we don't live today. Our days are all numbered. What are we doing with the minutes that we're living right now? Steve was feeling relatively good this afternoon, so we just laughed and talked, enjoying what we have now.

I have been very guilty much of my life of worrying about the tomorrows - I want a plan. It's so clear that I'm not in control anyway. Plan? The only plan that means anything is God's. And, the good news is - He's trustworthy and good. We'll just rest in that, and live fully in the now.

One of my very favorite passages is Matthew 6. We're living verses 25-34 with renewed peace.

"Therefore I tell you , do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own."